I like history very much so here is another anecdote written in may 1959 which the malays will hide because 'malu'


Shrubs in the Fairway
Monday, May. 18, 1959
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In a hotel suite at London's Grosveno House last week, Sir Ibrahim, the 85-year old Sultan of Johore, died of "genera debility." He had passed his last years quietly, watching TV. going to the theater, enjoying the company of his sixth wife, Sultana Marcella, and his adored eight-year-old daughter, Princess Meriam. "He was very rich, very brave and very, very fond of Britain," said the Daily Express, with an imperial sigh for the good old days. Men on three continents traded reminiscences about the strapping Sultan's prowess in love, tiger hunting and polo, told of his great generosity, autocratic tantrums and noble eccentricities. Some of them:
¶ As a young man, the Sultan used to slip from his dull capital of Johore Bharu across the strait to Singapore, where his pursuit of wine, women and song was so uninhibited that annoyed British authorities established a 10 p.m. curfew for the young monarch's own good, and set a brace of policemen on his heels to enforce it. If a car had the temerity to pass him on a Johore highway, the Sultan would improve his marksmanship by shooting its rear tires.
¶ In 1930 the Sultan's catchable eye was caught by Helen Wilson, the Scottish wife of his physician. He divorced his four Malayan wives by the Moslem formula of telling them "Get out" three times before witnesses. Helen Wilson sailed home for the more laborious Western process of divorcing her husband, married the Sultan later that year, and honeymooned with him in the U.S., where the Sultan was equally affable with President Franklin Roosevelt and Mae West.
¶ In London for the 1937 coronation of King George VI, the Sultan's roving eye focused on a British show girl named Lydia Hill. Hurriedly muttering triple "Get outs" to Sultana Helen and giving her $250,000 in jewels and a yearly alimony of $25,000, the Sultan sailed for home with Lydia.
When Singapore's British society behaved stuffily toward his show-girl fiancee, the Sultan struck back by firing all the Britons in his service and planting shrubs on the fairways and greens of the golf course used by the sahibs, which was on his property. But the romance faltered, and Lydia Hill, wearing a large diamond ring, returned to London and was killed in the blitz. "I am heartbroken," said the Sultan, who had followed her to Britain. A few days later he met reddish-blonde Rumanian Marcella Mendl and married her, explaining: "It was love at first sight."
¶ During the war, the Sultan gave $4,200,000 to the British war effort, did not lose heart even when the Japanese swept down through Johore and captured Singapore. With his wife he swore off liquor until the British reconquest. When Johore was "liberated" in 1945, the joyous Sultan cried out: "Now we can break our vow. Open the champagne!"
Despite his lively interest in women and wine, the Sultan brilliantly managed Johore, a jungle state the size of New Jersey with a population of nearly a million Malays, Indians and Chinese. When he took power in 1895 on the death of his father, the Sultan shifted the economy from opium and gambling to rubber. With other Malay states, Johore now produces one-third of the world's natural rubber. He angrily opposed self-rule for Malaya, outraged local nationalists by snapping: "It is all very well to clamor for independence, but where are your warships, your planes and your army to withstand aggression from the outside?"
The new Sultan of Johore is 64-year-old Ismail, whose mother was one of Sir Ibrahim's original four Malay wives. But Ismail can rule for only a few weeks in the semi-autocratic fashion of his dead father. Next month Johore will elect an Executive Council headed by a Prime Minister, and the Sultan will become a purely constitutional figurehead. The old days are gone, and the old ways are dying, but even the most nationalist opponents of the late, crotchety Sultan experienced a sense of loss. Said one: "He was Malaya's grand old man. His service to the Malay people will long be remembered."

this piece was written to a friend send today by email.


Din thanks for all the emails. Well trouble with our friends they are afraid to look at their faith to question is anathema. Din when we were young( I am not saying I am old) we were taught so much about Rukun Iman and Rukun Islam. The pillars of faith( Rukun Iman) applies to all believers. To me it is the litmus test for us. We were taught to believe in God, Apostle, Angels, in Fate, and the Armegeddon. Regardless whether you are a Christian, Hindus (Surprise!) Jews, Zoaraster or Muslim believe in this thing is important. I know we always associated hindus with many gods but true hinduism only believe in one. The others are manifestation of his powers. Just like Zoaraster (Majusi) it is among the first Monoestic religion as old as the jewish religion although we were taught they believe in fire. And if you believe in Islam, to me, it is the apex evolution in believing in God. That is why Surah Quhuallah is one third of the Quran and not Surah Fatihah which is ummi Al Quran. That is why for us Muslim the biggest Sin is always have been menduakan Tuhan or Syirk against him. This faith is what bind us believers for we cannot touch God, even though we know he exist nor show proof that Angels exist. How do we? Even the prophets life too, I think this is God's way, we sometime cannot verify his apostle existence except for Muhammad even then could we verify his hadiths? We were not there to hear him speak, there is no tape recorder which could tape his voice but we believe by faith alone. We believe the hadiths are true as told by Bukhari and Tarmidzi, two of the biggest compiler of hadiths. Yet of the volume of hadiths 1,000,000,00 odd only 7,0000 were deem to be authentic, less than 7%, were collected by Bukhari. Yet one of the authenticated hadiths state clearly never to compile his words, yet we don't obey,do we? In his last Haji he says he leaves you two things Alquran and Sunnah follow them and you never go wrong. He never says hadiths he says Sunnah, which is two different thing. Don't get me wrong Din, Sunnah doesn't mean how he drinks and eat, or what he wear but that is the preoccupation with our brothers, they take it too literally. To me Sunnah means what he is,his manners, his ideas his thoughts,his values for following that you cannot go wrong yet time and again we don't. We slander people, most behave like munafik, instead of Amanah we cannot be trusted yet we swagger like a prize cock thinking we are the chosen one as the Jews who were condemn by God. As Muslim we must carry that pillar of faith that bind us with other religion but we also have pillars of Islam too that divide us from the other believers. These is the Shahadah the first and all important one where we accept Mohammad as the messenger of God prayers fasting pay alms and go to Hajj. The Shahadah to me is the most important thing being a Moslem is all about, all others is secondary. Some might argue but this is my belief. You need not pay alms need not fast or need not go to hajj if there are reasons. Prayers is personal, you have to pray but it is a personal conversation with god so it is personal but not the Shahadah. Hasnah might commit apostate but to me alhamdullilah she still have faith. It is not us to argue or made a stand that she might go to hell for it is not us who decide. The Pillars of Faith that we subscribe to prevent us from being the judge and jury for there is God who will decide.
This might be a bore Din, but in the hadiths told by Aishah r.a. That Muhammad during his last days would pray until his feet was swollen. And when she ask why Muhammad are you not the prophet whom has been promise heaven his answer was curt,true but I still pray for I fear god's wrath. So did Muhammad say all those kind of things against Christian and Jews during his deathbed, I do not know, to me highly unlikely, because I base on his sunnah he is not like that. Did he said it, maybe, does it matter, did it damage the man regarded by TIME as the greatest leader that the world has produce, the answer is no. Din we can find fault with anybody if we want too. Muhammad is a human being. He was and idiot who with some miracle of God receive the revelation. Idiot here means stupid or illiterate I am no way pandang rendah dekat dia but the point is he was an idiot. That I think is one of the biggest mukjizat that I can think off, how come an idiot can come out with such a compelling book the world has ever seen. I got a book by Karen Armstrong, it is ban here as usual. She, a former nun, now a serial monotheist, in her book journey to find God it 's evolution, is a wonderful piece of knowledge. Try to get the book and try to get me the book that she wrote about Muhammad. I think it is a good piece to read, again ban here too. Sayang. She didn't condemn Muhammad at all but what she wrote is about Muhammad the Man. A very unbiased view from an unbeliever, I need to read it. What I got is from condensation .If you come here please buy me one. Forget what people say about others, as long as they have faith, it is ok. We as muslim have own dogmas, as long as we could respect others and not start condemning others we are on the right track. Protect God's covenant and commandment we'll be alright.

This is a paste up job. It is not about me but about a relation of mine which should be of interest. This piece is written by a Doctor in Kubang Krian just read ok. This is a new edited version 29 july 2007 posted here

History of Medicine in Malaya – Who were the early Malay doctors?
Biography – Dr. Hj. Pandak bin Alang Sidin
Version 3, 26 March 2007 1:46:35 PM


CHAPTER 2
Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad bin Haji Alang Sidin
(1890 – 1965)
Birth
Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad bin Haji Alang Sidin was born on the 22nd of April 1890 (barely sixteen years after the British officially occupied Perak in 1874) in the village of Kampung Kledang, mukim of Kota Lama Kanan, district of Kuala Kangsar, state of Perak.
Dr. Pandak Ahmad’s parents, and his close relatives, were ethnic Malays from the vicinity of the royal town of Kuala Kangsar, Perak (the town where the reigning Sultan of Perak resides).
Dr. Pandak Ahmad had a few older sisters (all deceased now) as he was the youngest child and only son from the same mother and father.
Dr. Pandak Ahmad also had a younger half-brother (the late Encik Muhammad Said Al-Feraq of Jeddah, Saudi Arabia who passed away in 1982) from another mother, whom his father married after his first wife (Dr. Pandak Ahmad’s mother) died.

Kota Lama Kanan
Kota Lama (meaning Old Fort or Old Castle in Malay) is a riverside settlement on both sides of a river called Sungai Perak (about 420km long) in the state of Perak (a state within Malaysia), situated just a bit further upstream (about 2km) from Kuala Kangsar town.
Old British Map (c.1880) of Perak
The word ‘Kanan’ (meaning right in Malay) refers to the settlement on the right river bank whilst ‘Kiri’ (meaning left in Malay) refers to the left river bank as one goes upstream.

Old Fort
This old defensive fort, with the sultan’s palace located within its walls, was actually built in the village of Kota Lama Kanan by the second sultan of Perak, Sultan Mansor Shah I (reign 1549-1577)** in the late-1540’s to defend himself and his subjects against the Achehnese (a powerful kingdom based in northern Sumatra island) military incursions.
The said sultan was however defeated by the Achehnese and taken in captivity, together with his family, to Acheh where he eventually died.

Perak War
Kota Lama Kanan is also known as the place where Captain (Retired) T. S. Speedy (the then British Assistant Resident of Perak), and his well-armed troops (numbering about 200 men and several pieces of modern artillery) led by Major J.F.A. McNair, ransacked and burnt down the whole village (including the village mosque) in February 1876.
*Note- Captain (Rtd.) T.S. Speedy, as the ‘Commissioner of Police’ and thus in charge for ‘Law & Order’ in the state, was based in the town of Taiping, Perak (which was the capital of Perak from 1874 to 1937), which is nearer at about 35km east of Kota Lama Kanan.
Whereas Mr. James W.W. Birch (the first British Resident of Perak who was killed in Pasir Salak, Perak in November, 1875 by Dato’ Maharaja Lela together with Dato’ Sagor and their followers) was based in Bandar Baru, Hilir Perak, Perak, which is further away at about 120km south of Kota Lama Kanan.
There was another detachment of British troops (numbering about 1,500 men) coming upstream from the Perak River mouth at about the same time, but had arrived too late to engage (to perform a ‘pincer’ movement with the detachment from Taiping to trap the rebels) in battle at Kota Lama Kanan.
This incident happened because the local Malays, under the leadership of its ‘Penghulu’ (meaning village headman in Malay), had resisted and fought gallantly against the British Sepoys’ (soldiers of Indian origin) attempt to pursue and capture the then ‘fugitive’, Dato’ Maharaja Lela, and his followers during the uprising known as the Perak War (1876-1877).
However Dato Maharaja Lela and his followers managed to escape and retreated to Hulu Kinta (where the city of Ipoh is located) in this instance, with the remaining British forces in hot pursuit of the rebels and thereafter turning this campaign into a manhunt.

War Memorial
Fifteen British officers and men (their remains are buried in the Bukit Chandan War Memorial in Kuala Kangsar till this day), including numerous British Sepoys and local Malay villagers, were killed in this incident at Kota Lama Kanan with many more seriously wounded on both sides.

Village Mosque
Some traces of the defensive earthen ramparts and ditches from this historic event could still be made out in the vicinity of the village of Kota lama Kanan till this day.
Tombstone of Sultan Mansor Shah I
However the village mosque (which has the tombstone [above] of the second sultan of Perak sited within its prayer hall, near the ‘mihrab’) has been completely rebuilt at its original site in 1916 with concrete.

‘Pandak’
His peculiar name, Pandak Ahmad, indicates that Dr. Pandak Ahmad was probably the fifth or sixth sibling. His immediate relatives and close friends called him ‘Pak Andak’ or ‘Pandak’.
Dr. Pandak Ahmad was also well known simply as ‘Haji Ahmad’ or ‘Dr. Ahmad’ by others.
*Note- ‘Pandak’ refers to a title of a particular order of birth among the Malays from the state of Perak, just as the word ‘Sulong’ or ‘Long’ refers to the eldest sibling, ‘Tengah’ or ‘Ngah’ refers to the second, ‘Alang’ or ‘Lang’ refers to the third, ‘Panjang’ or ‘Anjang’ refers to the fourth, ‘Muda’ or ‘Uda’ refers to the fifth, ‘Pandak’ or ‘Andak’ refers to the sixth, ‘Puteh’ or ‘Teh’ refers to the seventh, ‘Hitam’ or ‘Tam’ refers to the eighth, ‘Kecik’ or ‘Cik’ refers to the ninth and ‘Bongsu’ or ‘Chu’ refers to the tenth or the youngest.

Early Education
Dr. Pandak Ahmad did his early schooling at the Malay School in Kota Lama Kanan from Primary 1 through Primary 2.

Budak Suruhan’ (Boy-Servant)
Dr. Pandak Ahmad then went on to live with his aunt and uncle (Raja Ngah Mohamad Noh) in the town of Kuala Kangsar where he became their ‘budak suruhan’ (meaning boy-servant in Malay), a custom very common in those feudalistic days for children from poor Malay families; whereby the boy would have to fetch water, collect firewood, be punished if his aunt’s children misbehaved, tending to his uncle’s livestock, etc., to earn his upkeep.

‘Sekolah Jalan Hogan’
Luckily his aunt and uncle allowed him to continue with his schooling and Dr. Pandak Ahmad then attended a Malay School (Sekolah Jalan Hogan) in Kuala Kangsar from Standard 1 through Standard 5.
Nonetheless Dr. Pandak Ahmad would find time to study very hard in between his mandatory chores at home and his school time, and would eventually do well in his studies.

Secondary Education
Although Dr. Pandak Ahmad was a commoner (not of Royal or Noble lineage), he then attended the prestigious Malay Residential School in Kuala Kangsar, or now better known as the Malay College (MCKK), from Standard 6 through Standard 9 until he completed his Senior Cambridge examinations.

Malay College
His enrollment into the MCKK was made possible by way of his uncle, the ‘Datuk Indera Lela’ – Raja Ngah Mohamad Noh (who was related by marriage to his maternal aunt), who was then a minor ‘Pembesar Negeri’ (meaning chieftain or nobility in Malay) of Perak state.
This was because during those early days, only offspring from the Royalty & Nobility of the Malay States in British Malaya could attend the MCKK (which was established on the 12th of January, 1905).
*Note- The territory known as ‘British Malaya’ in 1910 consisted of 1) the Crown Colony of the ‘Straits Settlements’ of Penang, Dindings [this territory was handed back to Perak in 1935], Malacca & Singapore, 2) the Protectorate Territory of the ‘Federated Malay States’ of Perak, Selangor, Negeri Sembilan & Pahang and 3) the Protectorate Territory of the ‘Unfederated Malay States’ of Perlis, Kedah, Kelantan, Trengganu & Johore.

Undergraduate Medical Education
It can be safely assumed that Dr. Pandak Ahmad had enrolled into the prestigious King Edwards VII’s Medical School (whose name was later changed to King Edwards VII’s College of Medicine), Raffles College, Singapore in either June, 1909 or 1910.
However it can ascertain that based on recorded documents, Dr. Pandak Ahmad, together with Dr. H.S. Moonshi in the same batch then graduated from the medical school with M.B.B.S. in the Class of March 1916.

Housemanship
It is assumed that most probably Dr. Pandak Ahmad did his housemanship (or compulsory internship) at the government hospital (the General Hospital then but now known as Hospital Taiping) in Taiping, Perak where it was recorded that he had reported for duty on the 1st of April 1916.

Post World War I
Government Service
Dr. Pandak Ahmad was transferred to, and had reported for duty at, the District Hospital, Kuala Kangsar (now known as Hospital Kuala Kangsar) on the 3rd of March 1917, and it is assumed that this is when he was officially confirmed and entered into the government service.
It was recorded that on the 19th of February 1919, Dr. Pandak Ahmad was then transferred back to Taiping.

Batu Gajah and Seremban
On the 27th of September 1919, Dr. Pandak Ahmad was transferred from Taiping to the General Hospital (now known as Hospital Batu Gajah) in the town of Batu Gajah, Kinta, Perak until August 1921 when he was then transferred to the General Hospital (now known as Hospital Seremban) in the town of Seremban, Negeri Sembilan.
Nevertheless in December 1922 he was transferred back to Kuala Kangsar where he stayed for nearly seven years.

Mentakab
Dr. Pandak Ahmad was then transferred from Kuala Kangsar to the District Hospital (later known as Hospital Mentakab but now downgraded to a ‘health centre’ with the opening of the new Temerloh Hospital recently) in the town of Mentakab, in the district of Temerloh, Pahang in October 1929.

Pekan
Later in December 1931, he was transferred to the District Hospital (now known as Hospital Pekan) in the royal town of Pekan, Pahang (where the reigning Sultan of Pahang resides) and stayed until December 1932.
During his stay in Pahang, Dr. Pandak Ahmad had to serve the villages and towns located along the length of the Pahang River (the longest river in Malaya at about 480km in length) from the town of Pekan, right up to Chenor, Temerloh, Jerantut till Kuala Lipis (which was then the capital of Pahang state from 1890 to 1955).

‘Anak Angkat’ (Adopted Son)
It was while working in Pekan that Dr. Pandak Ahmad had befriended the father (who was one of the ‘Pembesar Negeri’ of Pahang state, but a poor one) and family of the late Tun Haji Abdul Razak bin Hussein.
Dr. Pandak Ahmad had in fact made Tun Haji Abdul Razak his ‘anak angkat’ (meaning adopted son in Malay) and had partly financed (by providing for Tun Abdul Razak’s school uniforms, school books, pocket money, etc.) his early education.

Kuala Kangsar
Dr. Pandak Ahmad was later transferred back again to the District Hospital in Kuala Kangsar, Perak in January 1933 where he eventually ‘retired’ from government service.
During his stay in Kuala Kangsar, Dr. Pandak Ahmad also had to serve the various settlements (from the town of Grik in the north to the town of Teluk Anson in the south) located along the greater part of the Perak river.

‘Retirement’
It was here in Kuala Kangsar, towards the end of his lengthy career with the colonial government and after he came back from his first hajj, that Dr. Pandak Ahmad had a few major disagreements with his British superiors (about the disparity of salary and benefits between local and British doctors, amongst others), after which he decided to resign (and thus ‘retire’) from the service at the age of thirty-eight years old.
*Note - The official retirement age for all local civil servants is 55 years old (and still is till today) and therefore Dr. Pandak Ahmad’s due retirement should only have occurred in 1945.
However, the British administrators hurriedly expunged Dr. Pandak Ahmad’s excellent record of service and had denied him his due pension payment after his early ‘retirement’ in 1938.
It was only later, in the 1980’s, that the Malaysian Government (as successor to the colonial government) reinstated Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad’s pension to his surviving wife (Hajah Aishah), for the rest of her life, in recognition of his contributions to this country.

‘Puru’
Both in Perak and Pahang, Dr. Pandak Ahmad’s main concern, and preoccupation, was the eradication of the dreaded skin disease known in Malay as ‘puru’ (yaws). This disease, which is virtually non-existent now, was widespread among the rural people back then.

River Doctor
Both among the older generations of people along the Perak and Pahang rivers, Dr. Pandak Ahmad was well-known as the ‘Doktor Sungai’ (meaning River Doctor in Malay) as he would come by their riverine villages in sampans or motorised boats.
This was due to the fact that there were no proper roads to connect the major settlements within both states (Perak and Pahang) in those days, thus a large portion of the rivers became the major route for access, and these journeys would takes days (and sometimes even weeks) to complete.

Hajj
When Dr. Pandak Ahmad went to Mecca (Makkah), via Jeddah, in 1937 in a steamship to perform his first obligatory pilgrimage (the Hajj), he brought along his wife (Aishah), two of his children (Mohammad Ali and Khadijah) and his younger half-brother (Muhammad Said).
*Note- In those days, a complete journey to and from the Holy Lands (Mecca and Medina) in Saudi Arabia would take at least five or six months in a large passenger steamship.
However Muhammad Said was left behind in Jeddah, to pursue his studies and eventually settled down there, after they successfully completed their first pilgrimage and returned home to Malaya.
Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad went to Mecca again in 1948 to perform his second hajj pilgrimage and to visit his half-brother (Muhammad Said) whom he had not met for nearly ten years, and this time he only brought along his wife (Hajjah Aishah) and two of his children (Sarah and Rahmah).

Japanese Occupation
During the Japanese Occupation of Malaya (1942-1945), Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad grudgingly co-operated by being a medical officer again with the occupiers as he had a large family to feed, clothes and protect.
Once he was caught with a radio receiver (banned by the Japanese authorities) in his house, however Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad escaped punishment by the Japanese because one of his nephews had admitted to being the owner of that particular item and was thus severely punished.

Private Practice
After Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad’s so-called retirement in late-1938 (just prior to World War II), he opened a private clinic in the town of Kuala Kangsar, but this clinic lasted for only a few months.
First Private Malay Rural Doctor
After closing his clinic in the town of Kuala Kangsar in early 1939, Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad then opened a private clinic at the ground level of his house (a typical Malay high timber house on stilts) in the village of Kota Lama Kanan to serve the local population.
With the opening of this clinic within a rural setting, Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad thus probably became one of the first ‘private’ Malay doctors to practice and serve the rural areas.

Payment
Getting paid for services rendered was always a problem because his patients were mostly poor rural Malays and whenever there was any payment, much of it was ‘in kind’ - that is with paddy (beras or padi), chickens (ayam), bananas (pisang), rubber (getah), etc.
This led to the other problem of stocking enough medicines or drugs required in the clinic to dispense to his patients as the medical suppliers had to be paid in cash, but Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad would improvised by utilising all the available free drug samples that would be provided to him, every now and then, by the suppliers.
But survived he did in spite of the difficulties he had to endure, and Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad even had a dirt road (about 5 km in length) constructed from the Iskandar Bridge (a bridge built by the British in 1931 spanning across the Perak river to carry vehicular traffic) to his clinic (house) with his own money for the benefit of local people.

First Motorcar
This had led to Dr. Pandak Ahmad becoming the first person in the village of Kota Lama Kanan to own a motorised vehicle (a motorcar), and to hire a driver to drive him around.
Dr. Pandak Ahmad also became the first person to own a generator in the village for use at his clinic, which was in use until the whole village was supplied with electricity by a private company known as the Kinta Electrical Distribution Ltd. (KED) in August 1965.

Rural Clinic
Much of his clinic, which was made entirely of timber in 1939, had been destroyed by two ‘banjir besar’ (meaning major floods in Malay) that hit his house in 1967 and 1972, and only a room with some derelict furniture still remains of his clinic today.

Post World War II
Political Involvement
Though Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad completed his education through the British-imposed educational system, he disliked and despised the British colonial policies and treatment towards the local population, especially with the notion burning inside his heart that his village and people had suffered directly under the British.
This important factor would shape Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad’s political views towards the British authorities and administrators as he would end up serving under them directly.

Anti-British
Although he had a disdain attitude towards the British, Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad had agreed to serve the colonial government because, besides it being mandatory upon him, he saw that he could be involved directly in the eradication of several common & widespread diseases prevalent among the rural people then.

Anti-Japanese
Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad had ‘respected’ the Japanese for their willingness to stand up against, and then sometimes defeating, the Western Powers but abhors their policy of colonising and subjugating other Asian nations, especially when they came to be in control of ‘Tanah Melayu’ (Malaya).

Kesatuan Melayu Perak
Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad was very concerned about the plight of the rural Malays, and their predicament, under the colonial government whereby their political rights were denied in their own land, and hence was determined to find a way to resolve this.
Therefore when the movement known as Kesatuan Melayu Perak (KMP) was formed by local Malay nationalists in Perak during the late-1930’s Dr. Hj. Pandak Ahmad immediately became its member and had fought together with others for Malay political rights.

Independence Movement
It is noted that Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad’s involvement in local politics was only at personal level.
Although he never held any position in any political parties other than being an ordinary member, nonetheless Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad was indirectly involved in the independence movement.
This was by virtue of the formation of the political party known as U.M.N.O. (United Malays National Organisation) in May 1946 by KMP and other Malay organisations throughout Malaya, and through its religious wing known as the Majlis Ulama, of which he was also a member.

PAS (Partai Islam SeMalaya)
However, when the Majlis Ulama withdrew from UMNO and formed P.A.S. (Persatuan Islam SeMalaya but now officially named as Partai Islam SeMalaysia) during the early 1950’s Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad followed them and became a life-long member, and staunch supporter, of PAS.
It was said that during Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad’s lifetime no one from his immediate family would openly dare to be involve with UMNO.

Tun Haji Abdul Razak
Thereafter, it was said that Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad and the late Tun Abdul Razak had not met each other because of the different political views each held, until the day he died when Tun Abdul Razak turned up at his funeral.
*Note- It was recalled by Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad’s family members that Tun Abdul Razak had tried to meet him several times since, through emissaries and mutual friends, but he refused because he strongly felt that Tun Abdul Razak had betrayed him.
However Tun Abdul Razak was kept informed of Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad’s well-being throughout his life by his friends.

Nationalist
Throughout his life, Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad remained true to his ideals and was considered a patriot, and a genuine nationalist who had fought for and had served his people diligently, by his colleagues and friends though he was not involved with nor supported the ruling party.

Reputation
Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad was said by his peers, friends, former patients and close relatives to be a man of principle, deeply religious, very trustworthy, well disciplined, highly innovative and righteous.
Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad was well-respected, honoured and loved by his close relatives and all the people that knew him, and especially by people he had served from the surrounding villages.

Loving Father
Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad was also a very strict but loving father to all his children. Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad was very particular about his children’s education, and he made sure that the boys go to English schools and the girls to Islamic religious schools (Sekolah Agama in Malay).

Fourth Malay Doctor
Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad came from a poor Malay family and then had to become a boy-servant initially during his younger days.
Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad then rose against overwhelming odds to become the fourth Malay doctor (and most probably the second Malay doctor from the Federated Malay States) to graduate from the King Edward VII’s Medical School, Singapore.

‘Datuk Seri Lela Paduka’
Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad was summoned to the palace and offered the title of ‘Datuk Seri Lela Paduka – Orang Besar Enambelas’ (one of the minor 16 chieftains of Perak state) by the then reigning Sultan of Perak (Sultan Yussuff Izzuddin Shah, reign 1948-1963) several times during the 1950’s.
*Note- Interestingly Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad was also offered the post of medical officer by some nearby big private companies (and also by some of the surrounding estates’ management) during the 1950’s to look after the health of their workers.
However he refused all of these offers at every instance because that would entail him to spend more time with the palace, or elsewhere, and Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad would rather spend his precious time serving his people who desperately needed his knowledge and expertise.

Dewan Haji Ahmad (Haji Ahmad Hall)
Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad has a village community hall (called Dewan Haji Ahmad in Malay), a structure built by the state government, named after him in Kampung Kledang, Kota Lama Kanan, Perak.

Language
Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad was well verse with the English and Malay language. His English was impeccable because he had studied in the English medium, was taught by British teachers in MCKK and the KE VII’s Medical School and that most of his references (books, journals, etc.) were in English.
It was recalled by one of his daughter-in-law (Puan Hajah Ruba’ayah) that Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad would always write to her, and her husband (Tuan Haji Mohammad Ali), in good English and vice-versa, and that he also wrote his diary in English.
Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad could write the Malay language very well in both the ‘romanised’ (Roman alphabet) and ‘jawi’ (Arabic alphabet) script. He would write in Malay to his brother in Saudi Arabia and older relatives in ‘jawi’, whilst to his children and younger relatives locally he would write in Malay using the ‘romanised’ form.

Diary
According to one of his surviving sons, former school teacher Tuan Haji Salleh, Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad had kept a diary (which was written in English) throughout his life, meticulously recording all the important events that had affected his life.
However that too was destroyed by floods, along with many of his medical books and journals, which swept the lower part of his house (clinic) and hence much of his memories, thoughts and opinions were lost forever.

Family
Most of Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad’s close relatives (sisters, uncles, aunts, cousins, nephews, nieces, etc.) reside within the ‘mukim’ (meaning Parish in Malay) of Kota Lama Kanan which consists of many traditional villages, such as Kledang, Batang Kulim, Kandang, etc.

Previous Marriages
According to his surviving close relatives, it was recalled that Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad had married a few times earlier on but had divorced all of his previous wives because they had bore him no children.

Surviving Wife
Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad’s last and surviving marriage was to Puan Hajah Aishah binti Haji Ahmad, who was from Kampung Ribu, Kota Lama Kiri, Kuala Kangsar, Perak. She was in fact one of his cousin’s daughter and was much younger (about 15 to 20 years younger) than him.
Puan Hajah Aishah was a full-time housewife. She passed away peacefully in the family house of old age in May 1997. They have nine children — 1) Habsah, 2) Ahmad Mahiyudin, 3) Rokiah, 4) Sarah, 5) Mohammad Ali, 6) Khadijah, 7) Salleh, 8) Othman and 9) Rahmah.
However three of Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad’s children (Tuan Haji Ahmad Mahiyuddin, Tuan Haji Mohammad Ali and Rokiah) are now deceased.
His Children
1. His eldest child and daughter, Puan Hajah Habsah (born in 1925), formerly a religious school teacher, was married to the late Haji Sheikh Harun bin Abdul Rauf Al-Marbawi (brother of the late Sheikh Idris Al-Marbawi, a renowned Islamic jurist and author). They have ten children - 1) Lotfi (deceased), 2) Halimah, 3) Yang Asmah, 4) Sa’odah, 5) Ayob, 6) Sallehah, 7) Mohamad, 8) Shukri, 9) Latifah and 10) Khuzaimah.
2. His eldest son, Tuan Haji Ahmad Mahiyuddin (born in 1927), formerly a postmaster and then a senior personnel at the Post Office in Penang, passed away peacefully of old age in November, 2006. The late Haji Ahmad Mahiyuddin was married to Hajah Che’ Uteh binti Haji Muhamad Ali. They have four children - 1) Salmiah, 2) Mohamed Yusof (one of the general managers of MAS), 3) Sharifah and 4) Abdul Ghani.
3. His daughter, Rokiah (born in 1929), had died in Kota Lama Kanan of high fever while still young.
4. Puan Hajah Sarah (born in 1930), formerly self-employed, was married to the late Encik Ibrahim bin Haji Baki and they have a daughter (Dr. Jama’iyah binti Ibrahim of the Faculty of Medicine, University Malaya).
5. Tuan Haji Mohammad Ali (born in 1932), formerly the Pengarah, Jabatan Pembangunan Koperasi Perak, passed away peacefully in his house of old age in September, 2002. The late Haji Mohammad Ali was married to Puan Hajah Ruba’ayah binti Mohd. Noor @ Wahi Anuar (formerly a Dental Matron). They have three sons — 1) Ahmad Tajuddin (an architect based in Penang), 2) Ahmad Najlan and 3) Ahmad Azhan.
6. Puan Khadijah (born in 1934), a housewife and is still staying in the family house in Kota Lama Kanan, was married to the late Major (Retired) Zulkifli bin Razali (brother of Datuk Rahim Razali, a Malaysian TV personality) and they have no children, but they have an adopted daughter (Nihad binti Zulkifli). However she has a son from a previous marriage (Abdul Malek bin Mohamad Said, an engineer based in Kuala Lumpur).
7. Tuan Haji Salleh (born in 1938), formerly a school teacher, is married to Puan Hajah Rafidah binti Abdul Malek, formerly also a school teacher. They have two daughters — 1) Salida (a lawyer and stays with the family) and 2) Dr. Rohani (a lecturer with Universiti Teknology Petronas [UTP] in Sri Iskandar, Perak).
8. Encik Othman (born in 1940), formerly a security guard, is married to ‘Dah’, a housewife, from Kampung Beluru, Kota Lama Kiri and they have no children.
9. Puan Hajah Rahmah (born in 1943), a housewife, is married to Encik Abdul Aziz bin Mor, formerly a businessman. They have seven children - 1) Khairul Azlan, 2) Zur’aina, 3) Azura, 4) Akmal, 5) Hazim, 6) Shamsul Hazri and 7) Mohammad Sohaimi.
Death
Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad bin Haji Alang Sidin passed away peacefully in his house on the 4th of May 1965 at the age of seventy-five (75) years old.

Ailments
It was recalled by his surviving family members that Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad had a few prevailing ailments during his latter years, such as hypertension, asthma and hernia (of which he was operated upon).
However Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad had suffered a suspected severe asthmatic attack (and was warded) and he had returned home to his house, after feeling well again, a few days before his untimely death.

Burial
Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad was fated to be buried next to his mother’s grave in the Muslim Cemetery at Kota Lama Kanan’s Mosque, Kuala Kangsar, Perak. His wife (Puan Hajah Aishah), who passed away much later in May 1997, is also buried nearby to his grave.
‘Solat Jenazah’
It was said that so many people had come to pay their last respect at Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad’s funeral that his ‘jenazah’ prayers (solat jenazah) had to be conducted at least six or seven times inside the village mosque so that all who came could be accommodated.

Funeral Crowd
Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad’s surviving family members recalled that the family’s timber house nearly collapsed because so many people had entered the house at the same time to view his remains before burial, and in fact all the roads leading to his house were choked with people and vehicular traffic for miles around on the day of his funeral.
It was also said that a lot more people from settlements further away from the village of Kota Lama Kanan were saddened and disappointed that they could not attend Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad’s funeral because news of it had come too late by several days, some even weeks.
Even with their hectic schedule, the late Tun Haji Abdul Razak bin Hussein (who was the Deputy Prime Minister at the time) and his entourage had made time to attend Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad’s funeral.

Medical Equipments
Some of Dr. Haji Pandak Ahmad’s medical equipments, supplies and books were later donated away by his wife, after his death, to a few private doctor friends who would come by to visit and whom she believed would have made better use of them, rather than sitting idly in the clinic.

Further Information
Son—Tuan Haji Salleh bin Haji Ahmad & his wife, Puan Hajah Rafidah binti Abdul Malek of Kuala Kangsar, Perak. Tel.: 05-7761914
Grandson—Ar. Hj. Ahmad Tajuddin bin Hj. Mohammad Ali of Arkitek ATMA. e-mail: atmapg@tm.net.my
Wan Zaharizan bin Hj. Wan Zan @ ‘Tot’, cousin of Ar. Hj. Ahmad Tajuddin. e-mail: wan_bozo@yahoo.com
Grandson - Mohamed Yusof bin Hj. Ahmad Mahiyuddin of Malaysia Airlines. e-mail: yusofam@mas.com.my
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1) Sultan Muzaffar Shah I (1528-1549)
2) Sultan Mansor Shah I (1549-1577)
3) Sultan Ahmad Tajuddin Shah (1577-1584)
4) Sultan Tajul Ariffin Shah (1584-1594)
5) Sultan Alauddin Shah (1594-1603)
6) Sultan Mukkadam Shah (1603-1619)
7) Sultan Mansor Shah II (1619-1627)
8) Sultan Mahmud Shah I (1627-1630)
9) Sultan Sallehuddin Shah (1630-1636)
10) Sultan Muzaffar Shah II (1636-1653)

Well, phew, school holiday is here as usual people get married during this time. My Aunt got married(my Mom(step) sister), she's 42. Her husband is 66 my Mom's former boyfriend, a widower who wanted to my marry my Mom, as both are widower, she instead match it with her sister, who now no more a spinster!So I went to the reception, lot's of food and people fill with my relatives whom I haven't met for ages. Beside death and the usual Hari Raya, which has been getting more subdued now days since the death of my father, marriage is where you meet them. And now days since Malaysia has become more modern the Malays have more or less discarded the family. So you don't spend time with family members as before. I remember when i was young our house would be fill with people during holidays. Families from all over would come down and stay with us, it was like a party of children all the time, I suppose that is why I dont care if people come and stay with me. I've played host to many foreigners and locals alike whom I consider friend. I know some of them would abuse the privilege but it is ok because to me I am gregarious for people although privately I love my space but I manage to create one with the little space I have. Living with 8 brothers and sisters and numerous servants and cousins at one time of another made you to adjust priorities. I know its kind of baffling to many foreigners even to Malays now but space is what you create. You will never have enough space and like people you never can get enough of them intruding so you let be as it is. I was born on 3rd October 1962 11.40 am. It suppose to be 11.10 but before the war we have made the clock faster by half an hour and in the 80's it was again faster by 30 minutes so according to the present time it would be 12.10 pm. I was born in Seremban N Sembilan at the General Hospital. My young life was fuzzy, I can't remember a thing. So everything was fuzzy. I only saw picture of me and my mom on the steps of Parliament. I was dress up as a girl, long hair and very chubby and I wore necklace with an anchor pendent. I was wearing it until I was six. My stepmom took it away with my consent saying boys should not wear it. Some view by the mullahs regarding necklace as abhorrent to Muslims lead to this state of affair. Am I against this view, depends, if one knew our lot in life than it is ok to wear one but society here would not accept my view,to me there are many other issues that need to be address like poverty. Crime depends to because they will be some idiots who would consider wearing a pendent as a crime so I digress. We live in an idiotic world where stupidity takes precedence. I have always been sickly since young as far as I remember. It has never put me down, when kids abhhor medicine I would take mine religiously. I have never stop taking asthma pills starting with tedral(now ban because it contain ephedrine) and now Nuelin plus my inhalers which now consists of Sabultamol Serevant and Pulmicort(a steroid base inhaler). Prior to that (I stop taking it anymore) for the past 10 years I was on Prednisolone(oral steriod). I realise my hand now trembles, and my bones are weaker, loss of bone density is one the by products beside other complication. I have no problem with it life need to be enjoy to the fullest and it have never put me down except my genitals are now shrunk and I hope not permanently but what to do.Sa la vie life has to go on. I still dream of the late Anna Nicole Smith so my imagination is still damn active. I have and always try to be independent as best as I can. Being the youngest in the family you constantly being overlook. I had a good life then, the world was my oyster, especially after my mom's death, what I want I get. Although I was a pain in the arse but even then when I was young I always share my toys with others. I was never selfish but although a tyrant. maybe because my eyesight was bad everything was fuzzy during my grown up ears. My uncomplaining attitude never make my father realize I cant see until I went to school. It was during the first term school holidays and my brother went to make his specs in Taiping. He complain he cant see so since he got a specs I also wanted to wear a spec not so much because I can't see because I wanted to be like him. So when my father send me to the optometrist, lo and behold, I was quite blind. And walla the world was clear as a dumbbell! maybe that tell you a lot about my character, I am a pacifist by nature, I accept my lot in life with no complain and made do with what I have. This character would haunt me but also would serve me in good stead. My father was floored, he hasn't realise I can't see because I never complain maybe I thought that's how the world was and how one should live. That was how with my asthma, the truth was my dad was busy and I grew up with the servant. I never knew unconditional love except my Dad, the rest would always come with condition. I took the management of my asthma myself, I treat myself. If I could find a quick fix to my breathing problem it would suffice. Thus I took drugs religiously and if I want not to go to school I feign asthma attack which is quite easy when you are suffering from chronic asthma. So I miss out school, a lot of school. I was happy, I indulge in daydreaming, you might call as that but really it is more than that,it is creating your own friends. Yes, I have my imaginary friends, I talk to trees as thought they were alive. I was laugh at by my brothers but most I talk to myself even up to now that habit I have not outgrown. Sometimes people would gave a weired glance but I can't help it. Studies now shown that people who talk to themselves are highly intelligent, hope so. At least I don't play with myself, than it would be a riot, anyway since people play with themselves sometimes, why is that a healthy pursuit but not talking? Humans are funny creatures, aren't they? I have to stop now my asthma is acting up again, need to lie down. I will continue my school years soon! It had to be in two parts, of course!

Another delay, Well I was in penang up north for a week. Running around like a headless chicken!!! Never reaching the shore and never will I suppose. I love my father a lot. He was the only one I remember. I remember his sacrifices and I wish I could repay him but I can't. All he wanted was his children to grew up as a responsible person and I wish I haven't fail him. When he was born in 1932 he was not the oldest but assume the mantle thus was call the biggest or Pak Besar or Pak Chak as the nothern malay slang would call him. He was the apple of his doting grandmother's eyes. He grew up with her thus absorb some of her peculiarities. To the elders they call him jambul or amboi because as customary for children of that age he would be sheared and left an outcrop of hair in front. So to his family mates he would call that the rest would refer to him as Wan Zan. A very peculiar name for a malay. He belongs to those Elders who believe duty before self as Helen Mirren in the Queen remark that was how we were brought up. Like a duck in the water he never forget his duty as the eldest in the family, his duty towards his own self would always come last. He is a soft fellow a romantic a good man unlike his father who was hard he was a sentimental fool. My mom was his childhood sweetheart ,he was smitten with her the first time he lay his eyes on her. Even when he finish his studies and was offered by his Uncle Tok Wa to finish his studies in UK to take up law he refuses. The reason being he has to marry his Uncle Adopted daughter Cik Zaitun a Chinese convert which he refuse flatly. He did his stint a teacher a Court Interpreter and later join the Customs service. While in Kelantan where he work he got entangle in a mess with a girl. He has to marry her under duress but in those days in the east coast you have to pay for your life if you don't take responsible for your action. they was no DNA testing then to prove whose baby it is not like now but to me that brother(half) is the eldest in the family. We accept it as that. It is a pity that brother of mine who was very bright due to the fractious life he lead, turn him into a trouble child. He mix with the bad hats, got into all kind of drugs had to be current( in those days when one get violent we perform on him electrical shocks which jolt the mind kinda of lobotomy) and never was the same after that. He divorce her as soon as he can because my Mom would refuse to be the second wife no matter what. So before the baby was born he already divorce her. He married my Mom and nothing was mention of that son until she die a tragic death at the age of 25. By then she has 4 sons and I am the youngest. I never understand the need for human beings to be in love, to need love, I am perhaps a guy who is squeamish of love but then again I never tested or remember unconditional love or mother's love so I never yearn it. Yes I ve tasted it and now I yearn it. Now I am a sentimental fool. My father went berserk, he cry for days, not just because of the sadness but the manner that she went. It was early morning March, we were staying at Jalan Gasing PJ with my Grandma and the rest. As usual in the morning my mom would pack my brothers and second cousins off to school. I usually follow and I would sit in front but this time no, I didn't. The night before they were some arguments as usual, my father sometime could be an arse, we all are. Driving down the Federal Highway in front of the EPF building she made a stop to turn right. In those days there was no viaduct or traffic light yet so you have to wait your turn. As she was turning a motorcyclist (helmet was not mandatory yet) ran into her. The guys head catapult inside through the passenger window and struck her. Again no air con in the car yet so we wind our window down, so it was a fluke. She didn't die there, she die in the hospital. The tragedy was made we didn't know which hospital, My father first rush to Templer but she was not there she was at the University Hospital which has just been built now known as UMMC. By the time he reach there she was gone,he never forgive himself. He would keep him inside the room for days and he can't see any picture of her. The irony was after her death(It was the sixth time death has occurred there) the government decided to install traffic lights at the junction now the place is a memory, a viaduct has been built since the mid 70's and people now hardly remember the death trap which resulted in my mother's death. He even try to contact my mother's spirit, it upset my grandmother and she was furious. He went to the bottle for awhile to drown his sorrows. He recover and immersed himself in work why the 4 of us become little tyrants. It was my grandma wish to bring back my eldest brother to the bosom of the family, now he is living with his grandparents in Kelantan. His stepfather refuse to accept him.Yes, his mother has remarried to a Chinese Doctor in Kuala Lumpur. we took him in but he refuse to integrate himself fully to the family what with an indifferent father. It was decided to find my father a wife especially with 4 kids who terribly needed to be discipline. So my Grandma and Grand Uncle went to search for a bride. My father was immersing himself in work and the highlight of his career was he receive a commendation by US government for his services during the visit of the President of The United States Lyndon B. Johnson.
He met the President because at that time in 1967 he was the Custom Officer in charge of the Subang International Airport which has just been built. Sadly all movies(he was an amateur 8mm movie buff) which he took during the arrival of the President went bad. We move after that from one place to another due to his posting so the movie got damage. My father was not keen to keep things he leave everything to the wife. My Mom would fuss about it but not him. It is the way with him and perhaps with me. It doesn't matter whom you met and if people don't believe you what matter most it is in your service record. A commendation later and the medallion with a picture of the president got stolen so to us it is sa la vie, what to be to be. In 1968 he remarried, to his cousin, it was arrange. He grew to love her and I suspect the love is not the same as his first true love. in 1977 if you come across a book publish by the straits times 'Who's who in Malaysia' his name appeared I do not remember if it is 1977 or 1978 edition but he is one of those Who's who. Sadly his career was screeching to a halt, his sons my elder brothers has forgotten to carry themselves with dignity. They have become a rich man's sons irresponsible and reckless. The biggest blow I suppose losing his eldest son with my mom to cancer. He never recovers, he basically lost his zest for life. You could see it ebbing away but you are hopeless. When he retires and later inform me at Subang Parade a shopping complex that he turn down the job as an adviser to the Brunei Customs in 1987, i feel sad. I wish he would have taken the job but he was tired. It is not for me but I was thinking of my younger siblings who were still in school, they need it. He needs the extra income and they need the luxury. He won't budge, to him perhaps monies don't solve problem it creates more. He seen the infighting among his Uncle who would squirm their way in so they could enjoy the wealth of his grandma via his mom. He seen how his siblings(not all) uses him to further their end. He cant complain they don't have a father so he was the father. Even his own father abuses him taking the house rent that he bought and using them instead of paying for the mortgage. He later sold the house in Kuala Lumpur. And his own beloved sons that he nurture and care after the death of his amour becoming so irresponsible, refusing to work laze around and one of them even took drugs. Why? The first one was a mistake which he try to erase so it doesn't matter if he turn into drugs but not Endon(my Mom's name) sons. He lost his faith during her death found it when his son die and no more,no mas no mas. After 7 years he past away slowly his health starts to deteriorate slowly but surely. To him the most important thing is family and his children whom he love dearly. About me, I was lucky, I didn't get trap into the money pit. I have a laisse fa ire attitude when it comes to money and life. A cavalier sort of way but that is another story. I was happy that until he die I could made him laugh and to me that is important. I have always have the ability to put a smile on people's face and also to annoy them terribly but my heart mean well. The only time I heard about him wailing was during my sister departure to United States to further her studies. It was 3 weeks before he die as though he knew he was going away for ever. I also remember the man who drove his son who died of cancer, the body was lying on the passenger's seat at the back, he drove at 2 in the morning from Kuala Lumpur to Penang. I was at the back making sure the body would lie still and he would talk reminiscing about the past. I never cry I can't, later when it was all over I did, I broke down and cry. I think that broke the camel's back, he was a change man. His son die in 1983 June 2 on Thursday evening 7.04. I remember that event as though it was yesterday. Life must go on, I try to prod him but I can't. He was so fed up with his children with Endon that you can see his disgust at them. But they were his, sometime my younger brother told me when he took a nap he would cry. He was not worried at my younger siblings because they have a mother but not the others which worries him. He voice that to his sister and her husband but I was happy when he says he's not worried about me only wish that I marry and settle down. But I can't even now life is hard for me and the only time I saw him with a tear in his eyes at me was when I was very sick and turning blue. I don't think he wants to loose another child. He can't bear it. In the end he leaves practically nothing only memories which we should cherish if we love him. To lead a good life, an honourable life and to keep the faith. He die in 1994 in the month of Ramadhan(the muslim month) I can't remember the exact time. I am sorry for to me he will always be alive in my heart.